whiteywhiteysnow

2010-07-25T21:12:00.001+08:00

http://simpleduqi.blogspot.com/

2010-04-04T11:30:00.014+08:00

This used to be my must-sing-song in Kbox. Nice song. Decided to end off this blog with this song. I'll welcome my brand new life. =)

If it doesnt play, use the link

作詞：阿信作曲：阿信

最怕空氣突然安靜最怕朋友突然的關心
最怕回憶突然翻滾絞痛著不平息最怕突然聽到你的消息
想念如果會有聲音不願那是悲傷的哭泣
事到如今終於讓自己屬於我自己只剩眼淚還騙不過自己

突然好想你你會在哪裡過得快樂或委屈
突然好想你突然鋒利的回憶突然模糊的眼睛

我們像一首最美麗的歌曲變成兩部悲傷的電影
為什麼你帶我走過最難忘的旅行然後留下最痛的紀念品

我們那麼甜那麼美那麼相信那麼瘋那麼熱烈的曾經
為何我們還是要奔向各自的幸福和遺憾中老去

突然好想你你會在哪裡過得快樂或委屈
突然好想你突然鋒利的回憶突然模糊的眼睛

最怕空氣突然安靜最怕朋友突然的關心
最怕回憶突然翻滾絞痛著不平息最怕突然聽到你的消息

最怕此生已經決心自己過沒有你卻又突然聽到你的消息

2010-04-03T11:04:00.002+08:00

Copied from a comment in Facebook. hahah.

We must all suffer one of the 2 things: the pain of discipline or the pain of regret or disappointment- Jim Rohn

2010-04-03T01:31:00.001+08:00

Love only blossom when the brain and the mind coincides. =)

2010-04-03T01:18:00.003+08:00

Been thinking a lot and that's why I'm blogging more than usual. There are many questions that pop out of my head. The one that has been bugging me the most is: Why am I treated this way? I feel like I dont deserve this treatment.

But I realised the answer is quite simple. That is: The world is just unfair.

Haaa. So easy right.

When one give, one does not expect reciprocation. But most people do hope that the person whom they give to doesn't turn against them. In fact they shouldn't.

But some humans are just cruel. Look at how some children cheat off their parents' life long savings. They did it without the consideration of how their parents have provided them with yearrrrss of unconditional love. I cant help but sigh. This is the world we are living in.. Comparing the parents loss to my loss, mine is like 小巫见大巫.

Love is a gamble. Nobody forced me to place my stakes. I trusted him and took the gamble. So now, I merely lost a gamble and I should just accept the results without being a sore loser. Nothing that I should grumble about.

Need some time to recover from the debts and earn some stakes before I decide if I want to gamble again. Haaaa.

2010-04-02T00:07:00.001+08:00

Booooooo! My all time favorite.
=)

2010-04-02T00:01:00.001+08:00

Hate "fishmongers"

2010-04-01T10:10:00.002+08:00

There is just this tingling need to stay in contact. And it just keep tickling and tickling me.

Shoo shoo.. go away!!

2010-03-31T23:06:00.004+08:00

Its at the low point in your life that you start to appreciate those around you.

Thanks to jasmine. I really owe her a lot after the incident. And I'm sorry too. I have missed quite a couple of runs. Thanks for being my listening ear, crying for me, warding off my additional troubles as well as being there when needed. And most importantly you are a source of my courage!!

(Probably its fated that I got to rest my ankle)

Thanks to my colleagues. Especially those who saw me break down but pretended they never see anything. It wasn't intentional. I just lost control for a while. Sorry.

Thanks to ben ben who sent me back home after I sprained my ankle.

Thanks to those who showed concern. I didn't name all. The list cant end. I appreciate you all from the bottom of my heart.

2010-03-31T07:42:00.005+08:00

How does it feel to build your happiness on your love ones misery? Probably he doesn't love me anymore.

Once his heart is no longer with you, it doesnt matter how many chances you give him. The more chances you give, the more you show your stupidity.

I guess I am one of those people who need to bang wall several times before waking up to the cruel reality.

The pain is so intense. But its a prove that I'm still alive.

Do I sound very emo?

To those who hope to know my story. I was quite ashamed to tell it. But it is part of my growing up process. Good or bad I should document it down. In summary, he sacrificed my happiness to continue with his prior chapter in life.

However I still do not understand why will a person sacrifice his existing happiness to pursue his regrets in the past. Wont that just cause more regrets? I respect his decision though.

Bite and clench on and believe that happiness is awaiting.

2010-03-27T21:19:00.001+08:00

This is my pengu 一号.

This is my pengu 二号.

2010-03-27T21:14:00.001+08:00

Painful but necessary decision. One that needs to be done to forget the past and to move forward. Bite and clench on, and believe that happiness is awaiting me

2010-03-27T09:37:00.004+08:00

Itachi Uchiha.

The most respectable character I have seen from so many animes that I have watched. I wondered if there is anyone so great in this real world.

He is now my favorite character of all time.

To know that someone lived for you and sacrificed EVERYTHING for you is tremendous pressure. Furthermore he made Sasuke Uchiha killed him. Probably it is better is to die of sickness. At least if Sasuke eventually knows the truth, he wont be in so much pain.

I guess he couldnt escape in time. Now his little brother is going to revenge for him. And by revenging, Sasuke will be destroying whatever Itachi has been trying to protect all the while.

Sad!!

Haaaa. why am I analyzing anime.

But he is my favorite character.. He is like how strong la. *Admiration*

2010-03-21T20:41:00.002+08:00

It may takes 10 years to build but it takes only 10 seconds to blow if all up.

走错一步，当真全盘结束？

2010-02-27T08:43:00.002+08:00

Had this right eyelid infection thingy again. This is my second time.. boooo.. Its not really that painful but its still uncomfortable. Plus it is not serious enough to warrant you an mc. heh..

Work has been fine.. However i'm not very happy with some of my colleagues who are actually the same level as i am, but always think he has the authority. making promises on our behalf, pushing work to us. seriously i wonder what he has to do. to me he just seem to be slacking all the way. he comes in late sometimes but most often than not, he leaves at like 4+. -_- plus he seems to be claiming credits. if you are not of my department, u would prob think v highly of him. and there are rumours that he is going to get promoted. OHHHHH NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. boohoo..

I guess this might be the office politics going around. Actually I do think that my department has quite a bit of politics and i dont like it at ll. But i guess i just have to try my best to ignore them and get my own work done. However there arent much work recently!!!!! So how.. I just keep "begging" the field supervisors to bring me out to the site to learn about real field work.

Cost and schedule is just not realistic if you dunno whats happening in the field. Thats also why i dont understand why they hire fresh grads. Anyway fresh grads got to start someway or another. So I'm just going to work with it.

Luckily I have a nice boss. However I do think he is a bit too nice and too scared to make mistakes. Cant really control his subordinates too.. Ohh wellll. I guess it works the same way anywhere. It is dependent on lucky. At least he is nice.

2010-02-19T23:05:00.002+08:00

Myself. so ugly!! eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee

Pei Lin. look quite natural right.

Kai Ling

Li Yee. Look cute right

Shendy. Look cute too.

2010-02-07T08:26:00.002+08:00

I went for the safari zoo run yesterday and my conclusion is that:

For runners: it's a waste of time. (it's stated 6.1km but it is only a 3km run. There is no timing, and it's so crowded) They stated the starting time was at 330 and flag off is at 4pm. They started flagging off @ like 430 and they flag off with waves. So its just waiting and waiting and waiting. Everyone just starts getting grumpy and bored. With the weather so hot, it just makes things worse.

For non-runners: it's a waste of time too. As you walk/run through the zoo, you barely see any animals that are out. The goody bags kinda of suck (only a small bag, and no t-shirt) and the run is freaking expensive. The lucky draw is also pathetic. The location is ulu, so after the run, you basically cant get a public bus and you cant get a cab. Plus it's peak hour, so if you call for a cab its gonna be even more expensive. The F&B are crowded to a max and they actually receive some corner for private function. (which i think its for the organisers) I doubt they ll start the function so early lor, so you just see everyone waiting for seats when one big corner is reserved. Whatever lor. they stated in the run package that runners can get 20% off F&B in the zoo. We went KFC and there isnt.

Basically its just a waste of time and a will-never-participate kinda of thing.

2010-02-03T22:41:00.002+08:00

I spent 5 hours to look for a minus sign somewhere!!

Wth..

Hur!! BOOOOOOOOOOOO

2010-01-31T23:15:00.002+08:00

Weekend simply pass so fast. I have not even relaxed yet and its gone already.

Recently, weekend seem even more busy than weekdays. I sleep later than usual and a wake up only slightly later than usual. But I did manage to catch a short nap on saturday and sunday. 1-2 hours of nap. Its not enough enough to clear my weekdays sleep debt. But its still better than nothing. I guess I must wait for 2 more weeks and the chinese new year long long weekend will be here.

Hope to spend more time with my mummy, daddy and the M&M. haha.. Nua-ing. And I can't find time to shop too.. Some of my stuff are spoiling. No time and no money too.

But i conquered two feats this weekend!!! Firstly I finally passed my driving test... wooohoooooooooooooooooooooooooo..

Secondly, I manage to replace the leaking tap in the toilet. With some help from my sister. It makes me feel slightly more like an engineer. hahahahha.. with some hands on work.. Ok it's nothing difficult, but I'm happy that I learnt some small and beneficial skills.

In Singapore, I see majority of the kids/youths that are live in comfort of the parents and eventually not knowing much about all the small details at home. e.g. setting up wireless, changing taps, cleaning air con, changing the florensence tube, how to paint the house etc etc. I still think its best to be independent though if one has a choice, it is definitely more comfortable to just rely on others.

That's the problem and also the good thing about my family. Cos i'm usually the one who need to solve these problems at home. I get to learn! haha.

Glad that there is google and I can actually watch video, and learn how to change a tap and there is hwz that has a forum teaching how to turn off the main water header of the house. It makes learning much more easy.

2010-01-30T17:05:00.001+08:00

Finally passed my driving!!

It's a terrible experience. Heart just keep pounding throughout the test. Even after.

Expensive experience too.. Its worse that the a half an hour roller coaster.

2010-01-27T22:22:00.003+08:00

There have been so many gathering recently that I cant really find time for all of them. I dunno why it's all gathering over this few weeks.

I seems like after I started working, I cant seem to find sufficient time for personal stuff. So much so that it eats into my sleep time. And this situation occurs even when I leave office on time at like 520. Can't imagine how it will be like if my work requires frequent OT.

Time just pass so fast that I would actually want to spend money to buy time. for example taking cab to save time. (Not that I have a lot of money but it seems to be a good solution) To me, time is probably THE thing that I won't mind spending money to buy. I'll rather sacrifice money, than my family, my time doing v minimal exercises, my time with friends, my time with M&M, etc etc. That sounds like a good excuse to keep taking cab/buy a car right. Lol.

2010-01-21T19:14:00.002+08:00

it's been a long time since i updated my blog. Nothing much changed in these days. Work has been challenging but not busy. Not the exact job that i would like to have but it's fine. I can stay here foe another year or so before i rotate out of the department. My boss is nice n friendly but maybe a bit too friendly. Pay is good, i'm satisfied. Enough to live comfortably n pay off my study loan a little a month.

Just came back from a short trip to malaysia. Brought my mum there so that she can relax for a few day while my dad was placed in respite care. Somehow, it doesnt turn out to be v nice whenever he goes to nursing home for respite. The previous time he came out with high fever landing him in ttsh for a week. Now he came out with a dislocated shoulder. -.-"

So now, i'm again back to the familiar ttsh. I really hate hospitals but somehow, but somehow i seem to frequent here. I admire doctors. Really admire them. It's not easy to work in places full of despair n sadness. Though it could be full of hope too. But with higher hope, u might end up feeling worse.

So i really respect all the staff here.

2009-12-07T20:24:00.001+08:00

Been busy these few days. Too tired to run after I'm home. Feel like just going straight to bed.. But somehow i ll just tu and tu and tu.. and the next morning, i'm like another zombie again..

went to the pullup bar after ball last friday.. I can barely do 5. Hai.. Cant imagine myself doing myself 15 in the past.

2009-11-30T22:41:00.002+08:00

Did anyone realised that the crowd out on the streets are getting quite ridiculous for the past few days?

I do frequent town, but for the past few days, places like Bencoolen, Vivo, etc are much much worse than town. Is it just coincidental that the places I visited are much more crowded than they used to be? Or is it bcos EVERYONE in singapore is out doing shopping. Hurhur.. Even OG at Bencoolen.. I got to rub shoulders with one person every like 10m. Oh mineeeeee.. I gotta find a more quiet place to visit. I hate crowds.

I did the tank inventory exercise today.. I got to climbed up tanks ranging from 30+ feet to over 70ft. All in all, 7 tanks of average height of 50+ft. Tiring!! Its not only the climbing up of the tank, its the crawling through the big and small pipings to make it to the stairway of the tank even before the actual climbing starts. In addition, there is this pail that we have to carry with all the measuring instruments in it.. And the pail is heavy. I wont say its v v heavy. But imagine 3kg over 6storeys. And also with the heavy oversized safety boots. Oh man!!

Good training. Hurhur..

Besides the physical training I got, I really thought its a good experience. The technicians are friendly and helpful. They answered my questions straight to the point and are v willing to share their knowledge. Actually there are flaunting off their knowledge. But its good. Really.

Its the first time I got my hands dirty and really do the actual field work. I have been cooped up in the office trying to do cost estimate, but I do think that I belong more to the field. Prob I'm more suitable as an technician than an engineer.

Ok another 2 years before I can decide if I need a change.

2009-11-20T23:46:00.000+08:00

I hate to deal with people who likes to deal with politics and see colleagues as competitors.

bahhhhhhhhhhh

2009-10-31T22:18:00.001+08:00

The sky was dark and gloomy but I still decided to go out for a run.. Usually in this kind of situation, the sky ll hold for a while.. And I will be able to complete some mileage..

But today, it started pouring before I hit 2km.. I'm sad.. And the lightnings are just too scary for me to continue..

I'm finding myself out of location to go to. Shopping is getting boring.. The same old places in the same old shops..

Other than shopping, kbox and movies, other stuff either too expensive are just too tiring.. I wanna relax my weekend..

Hurhur.. I'm bored..

2009-10-20T21:22:00.000+08:00

I found myself liking Mac donald quite a lot. cheap and yummy..

Heh.. This is quite random too..

2009-10-20T21:19:00.000+08:00

oh no...

I'm falling sick again..

Sometimes, I really wonder.. If I am not me, how would I view myself.. Hmmmmmmm..
Childish? Stubborn? Annoying?

I might probably not like to be friends with myself..

Heh.. sorry this is a bit random..

2009-10-13T21:38:00.002+08:00

Another birthday..

Happy birthday to myself..

People started questioning why I didnt take a day off. Questioning why I'm not going out after work? questions after questions. As if I am guilty of something.. Even I wavered a bit.. And started thinking if I should get something done..

But why not??

I know birthday is a special day. When I get messages from friends that I have not been keeping in touch with.. Of course its also a good occasion to catch up with close friends. Good time where couples can spend quality time together.. But I probably don't need to do everything on the actual day.. As long as the purpose of birthday is met, i'm happy. =)

2009-10-11T21:45:00.003+08:00

Did sava sprints over the weekend. It was a last minute decision for both me and jasmine as the team seriously lack girls..

We went down as the mountbatten team and intended to do women, men, and mixed boat..

However due to some cock up, both me and jas didn't row for the mixed boat at all on saturday.. So we went down to bedok reservoir to sun tan.. hahah

My opinion on the race: two very different team merging into one so that we can make enough people to do sava sprints..

But sava sprints is a freaking 200m bust.. Something that really needs coordination, togetherness to do well.. and well we had like ONE training together.. Wowwww..

Though we didn't do well for the race, but it's probably the best that we can make out of it. 4th for the ladies.. losing to japan,nus,ntu.. sounds alright to me..

But I guess to the rest of the team mates who has been training v hard in their respective area, the results might not be as they wanted. but oh well..

So all in all, I brought back 2 cuts, and 4 blue blacks from the race.. hahhah..

2009-10-08T20:03:00.000+08:00

Fever refuses to go off entirelyyyy.. Howwwwwww.. =(

5th day mc sounds ridiculous.. hurhur..

2009-10-07T20:41:00.003+08:00

Finally, my temperature is staying below 38.. But the new medicine that the doctor gave me makes me v v v drowsy.. and the earth seems to be swaying when I stand up..

And it makes me perspire so much that my entire shirt is wet.. And I dunno if the virus is clear or if its the medicine working.. (I dunno if I'm fit enough to go back to work)

Anyway, I got a good rest these few days. While awake, I even caught some movies.. Anime movies actually. I watched the Raven Chaser (Detective Conan) and Fade to Black (Bleach). Though I like Conan more, I think the Bleach movie is nicer this time round. But they are both good..

Somehow I like Japanese Anime movies much more than any others. They are just nice.. But sadly, only a few of them are produced every year and they need to be subbbed before I can understand what is going on..

2009-10-06T23:33:00.005+08:00

I came down with a 38 degree fever immediately after a dragonboat session on sunday..

Visited a doctor on monday, and she says that its a viral fever. Two days of MC without any medicine except for panadol.

Supposedly my mc should end today.. Butttt as my fever is going above 39 degrees she gave me two more days of mc.

4 days of mc and I can imagine my work piling up in office..

Anyway this is the first time I experience this kinda of fever. The only symptom I have is fever.

No sore throat, no running nose, no cough.. Just plain fever..

So the temp will run high, then I'll take the panadol. After which I'll start perspiring and the temp will come down. After around 3 hours the effect of panadol will then be over and the temp shoots right up. I will have to wait for another hour before I take 2 more of the panadol.

And the cycle just repeats.

If the fever continue, the doctor is going to draw my blooooooooooddd on thursday morning and send for test.. BAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.. NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO... hurhur..

2009-09-29T21:13:00.002+08:00

Work has been good.

Very nice boss.. nice colleagues.. nice environment..

Its just that the job scope that I am currently engaged in is a bit dry..

But i should have no problem in this department for 2-3 years. (normal cycle before we rotate around)

I just discovered the first wu nai in jobs. Sometimes you just want to do your work properly.. But you cant control how others view you.. The more you try to explain the more they will view you in that way.. Once they put you in the category of distrust, you will be in it for a long long long time.

i.e. i should an unbiased/neutral party providing cost estimates. However someone might think that I am playing with the figures just to side the project team.. But i am not.. And argghhhhhhhh.. its irritating..

But i guess its just part of working life.. I will get used to it..

2009-09-10T21:14:00.000+08:00

I firmly believe that both parties are at fault in a quarrel.

One slightly more, one slightly less.

It depends on how much you treasure the relationship at that moment in time to determine the outcome.

Siblings, friends as well as couples.

It doesnt matter who says sorry first..

The only thing that matter is whether other party treasures the relationship as much as you.

2009-09-07T22:16:00.001+08:00

Went to try trapshooting on saturday with my colleagues..

It is harddddddd..

Damnn harddddddd...

For those who doesnt know what is trap shooting, it actually originated from a v cruel sport involving capturing pigeons, releasing them and then shooting them down.

So now, trapshooting involves a clay-like UFO that will be released at a v fast speed and you ll have to hit it with a 4.5kg shot gun..

sometimes when I fire, I know i'll miss the target, but I have to fire at that instant bcos i got no choice.

if i fire, i know i ll fire at the wrong spot. if i dont fire, i know i'll miss the timing for sure..

soooo I suck... lol..

and i suffered a bruised shoulder from the recoils of the shotgun.. hurhur.. I can barely stretch my arm backwards now..

actually I thought I would be able to handle a 4.5kg shotgun relatively well.. I'm like thinking: I have paddled for so many years.. I couldnt be that weak right..

But I am that weak lor.. I got to shoot like 10sec after holding up the gun or my arms ll start trembling like the-old-hdb-lift-reaching-a-storey.. It's true.. I'm not joking..

2009-09-07T22:16:00.000+08:00

2009-09-01T22:24:00.000+08:00

Started watching CSI..

I'm pretty back dated ya..

But the show is really cool.. But I gotta close my eyes multiple times within the first ten minutes of the show.. (that's precisely the reason why I'm so backdated. I cant decide if i wanna get hooked to a bloody show) hurhur..

but the show is niceee..

Other shows that I recommend is THE BIG BANG THEORY.. It's a comedy about 4 genius and how they live in their scientific life.. It's really funny.. But then as the comedy goes onto the 2nd episode, I started getting lost at their jokes like how penny get lost in the middle of sheldon's theory..

Watch them!!! It's good entertainment..

2009-08-30T00:02:00.002+08:00

I realized that my propensity to spend increase a lot after i start work..

But I kinda enjoy it.. Better food.. And when I shop, I wont keep calculating if I have enough to spend for the rest of the month..

My budget is sooooooo tight during school days that I never really had enough even for food. Movies and other entertainment are just luxuries that I can go for once in a while..

But nowww... If the amount is not big.. Like movie 10bucks, pasta 10bucks, starbucks 10 bucks.. I just spend w/o thinking..

Even then, I got prevent myself from overspending also la.. Not say just anyhow hui huo..

Adding to my meh meh's collection: =)

2009-08-24T23:21:00.001+08:00

Can you believe it... my cramps was so bad that I cried during lunch... hurhur..

my eyes started turning red, then watery then teary and then water starts dripping out..

its so ma luuuuuuuuuuu..

my colleague thought i shi lian..

lol.. wuhahah

2009-08-21T22:32:00.000+08:00

Just days after my sister extract her wisdom tooth, mine is giving me problemss. hah..

There is like a 1cm diameter of ulcer at the back of my mouth near with the wisdom tooth is..

My wisdom tooth is just starting to grow out of the gums and where the pointy region is, is where my big ulcer is..

I am thinking its cos my mouth tissue is not use to the pointy region that's why there is such a huge ulcer there..

Now I kai bu liao kou man.. lol.. not that bad la..

but according to my brief search online, it may be Pericoronitis.

Pericoronitis is defined as the inflammation of the soft tissues of varying severity around an erupting or partially erupted tooth with breach of the follicle.

The explanation is too cheem.. So i dunno whether it is.. argghh..

but its painfullllll.. Imagine a huge ulcer in your mouth.. hurhur..

2009-08-18T21:34:00.000+08:00

I almost had another leg cramp yesterday night in the sleep. But I woke up in time before it really starts.. So with my eyes closed, I'm like pulling the muscles back.. And the pain really went away before it gets full blown and I fall back asleep as if nothing happened.. lol..

leg cramps at night ~ symptoms for pregnancy

hahahah.. no la.. I went to research about it and its due to dehydration.. heh.. but yaa true, i remember i drank less than a bottle the previous day..

Yup drink more water!!!

2009-08-16T15:18:00.001+08:00

I was watching this (http://www.ykedwin.net/2009/08/2009-08-07_723.html) a moment ago.. and wowwwwwww.. I realised that singapore actually got quite a fair bit of talent too.. haha.. but we kinda of play cheat a bit la.. we sent people with competition experience to there where they are really really new... like di ya.. i thought she is already preparing for album?? in this case, she shouldnt be pk-ing what..

anyway.. I want to warn everybody about this v v v v v v bad service at the mani/pedicure shop at far east top floor. its beside the toilet.. but i dunno the name.. their pedi is like 7 bucks and mani is 5 bucks.. NEVER NEVER GO THERE..

Its not about getting bad quality, if you go there to spend money, 你在花钱买罪受！I meant it.. The person was damn rude and she bad mouthed jen in front of me and she bad mouthed me in front of me... WTH.. and then she is v inpatient and v hack care..

I wont go there even if they pay me 10bucks lor.. Its really not worth it.. Everyone who reads this, tell all your friends not to go to the fareast-top-floor-beside-toilet mani/pedi cure stop..

ROARRRR..

2009-08-11T21:07:00.000+08:00

maybe i am just pms-ing..

Heh

2009-08-11T21:04:00.000+08:00

Within a transition phase of my life. Dunno what i want, dunno what to do..

I sleep early, and wake up early..

Breakfast, work, lunch, work, come home, dinner, dunno what to do, sleep.

I'm feeling w/o a purpose.. hurhur..

needa search for more joy and more motivation..

2009-08-05T20:21:00.000+08:00

I went to the site yesterday again.. Again some more climbing to do.. I climb up to a tank which is prob about 20m tall in height.. and guess what, when I'm walking down, my leg started shivering..

-_-"

and nope its not cos i'm afraid of heights, but its bcos my thighs are aching.. Oh mannnnnnnnn..

actually i really think that my quads shrunk like 20% since my last marathon.. hurhur... No wonder the ache come so easily..

I really need to run more man.. but it sometimes can get really tiring to make myself run..

how i wish i could work nearer home..

2009-08-02T10:54:00.000+08:00

Slept for 11 hours on Saturday and slept 10 hours today.. shuang..

But probably i should do some workout on weekends too..

2009-07-30T21:37:00.000+08:00

Pretty determined to stay fit while working..

But it seems the difficulty seems to overwhelm the determination.

I must stop thinking that way.. EVERYTHING IS POSSIBLE..

I must tell myself that it is really not that hard. and indeed it is not that hard.........

Jia you jia you.

2009-07-28T21:24:00.000+08:00

I thought it would be good if i blog about my current work situation but I worry about divulging confidential information too.. cos the company is quite annal about such stuff..

Yup so i ll just briefly mention.. today is the first day that i went to JI since i started work.. gotta go there for site visit.. and guess what, the equipment that i need to see is on the tallest tower of the entire company.. bahhhhhhhh.. and to make things worse, i have to climb up like >20 flight of stairs with a super heavy safety boots.. hurhur..

but after i'm up there, the view is quite spectacular.. I can see almost all of the surrounding.. and since a lot of equipment are in their construction phase bcos a new plant is coming up, i can see a view that i normally cant see.. i.e. how often can you see the internals of a tank and how they actually go about fabricating it..

then again, i dont like to visit the site.. it's damn freaking hot.. it's not about the weather.. it's just there are a lot of reboiler la, steam la, air fin cooler around emitting hot air.. bahhhhhhhh.. but thankfully, i dont need to go the waste treatment area yet.. that area stinks.. believe it or not, it is worse than smelling ammonia..

2009-07-24T23:32:00.002+08:00

I think I am very different from my sister in many ways.. But actually I notice that I am similar to her in some ways too..

I just had some "argument" with her.. Its not actually an argument, its just both of us trying to put our point across. and when we believe in something, we cant accept whatever others say and we forcefully try to get our point across.. but (prob) bcos we are both lousy at language, we cant get what we really want to say across, we end up feeling frustrated and upset and just stop talking..

But I have realised this problem of myself quite a while ago. its bad bcos i become very narrow minded and my tone i used in putting my point across isnt v nice too.. I've been trying to be receptive..

so during my "arguement" with her just now, I'm just trying to put up another side of the story to her.. but she become so protective of what her opinion that she started raising her voice and that kinda of piss me off.. hello, i'm not even saying that you are wrong, i'm just trying to say that probably there is another way to look at it..

but her act reminds me of myself.. I am probably still like that sometimes.. but I'll change. slowly.......

2009-07-21T20:43:00.004+08:00

I have always wanted to keep a ham ham as a pet.. But ever since my first ham ham (niao chi) died, I decided not to. The lifespan of a hamster is just too short and I get very upset when they have to leave...

Recently, I dunno y... the urge of keeping a ham ham is increasing.. hurhur.. But I'm not going to get one from the pets shop.. I always think that getting pets from pets shop is wrong.. i think its unethical to breed animals for selling/profit purposes..

so i have been looking out for people putting their hamsters for adoption. looking out for newly born winter whites.. haha.. so if you know of any, do tell me k... =)

2009-07-19T22:55:00.001+08:00

I think I get adapted to environment slowly..

Working doesnt seem to be part of me..

I enjoy my weekend not bcos I have lots of fun.. More bcos I think I can be back to my normal self..

Adapting to uni life took about a year.. So i guess I'll give my job one year before I decide if this is the career path I am going to take..

Jia you..

2009-07-16T22:17:00.003+08:00

To all nokia users!!!

You all should try this..

This is great.. I wonder why they never make publicity about it.. bcos its in its beta phase??? heh but its since march 2008..

Seems like I have been missing out a lot due to unawareness..

2009-07-14T21:07:00.003+08:00

I threw my temper on someone today and that makes me reflect on myself quite a bit. I'm kinda of short tempered. And when I am pissed, I show it out loud.. But then 5 mins later, I'll forget about the incident..

This is bad and kinda of immature.. But I just cant seem to get out of it.. Ok, its just excuses. I just haven try hard enuff. Boohoo I have poor EQ..

Other than that, people has been commenting about my other shortcoming too.. Carelessness la, rough la, mei you xing xiang la, etc..

I really cant control my carelessness, but my roughness??? hehhhhh.. v rough meh..

Other things about myself that I find amusing about myself are:
1) I cry v easily
2) I cant stand being scolded (I just get pissed off, or I ll start crying. lol)

I passed by tpy when I am getting home today.. And I saw bega having SALESSSS.. I bought a few of my working blouses there so being curious I went to take a look.. and omg, the clothes that I bought are like HALF PRICE NOW... ROARRRRRRR

Bega is in my blacklist now.. Not going to buy anything from there anymore..

Currently on my wanting list is still the soft toy that I want to buy since long time ago.. But it costs like 80bucks... Haven had enuff impulse to buy such an expensive soft toy.

2009-07-09T21:58:00.002+08:00

Started work for about a week.. Things are going alright. Colleagues are friendly and helpful..

Job scope is roughly like costing in design II. Except that this time its for real, not anyhow adding figures..

I left work early today and caught the shuttle bus that sends me to toa payoh.. I was so happy that I can reach home early for once.. But when I get to tpy, I realised that my wallet is locked in my cabinet back in my office..

Baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhh.. I couldnt go back and get it cos I do not have any money/ezlink card with me to travel back. Neither do I have money/ezlink card to go home..

So I called my mummy hoping that she will come and fetch me.. I was asking her if she could come to tpy or should I walk back.. and she decided for me that I should walk back.. Booooooooooooooooooooo.. it's >half an hour of walk lor..

2009-07-02T20:55:00.002+08:00

July is here and I have officially started work..

Had fun in my final holiday. Slacking, nua-ing, paddling and going out.. Enjoyed my final day of holiday especially..

I was hanging out with the F4s and I realized that if you go out with your close friends, you dont need to plan.. Somehow you will just find things to do and before you know it, its the end of the day and everyone has to go home.. So fun!! Lets do it again..

Seen a few of my nus chemical engineers during exxonmobil orientation. Yes only a few.. Seems like the job market is really really bad.. Boohoooo.. Seems like most people are jobless.. I am one of the super lucky ones around..

However orientation is daaaa boring.. and the heels are daaaaa painful.. hurhur.. I'm hoping that i can get used to it soon.. Orientation ended today, and tomorrow I am going to meet my supervisor and will be introduced to my job.. I dont have a good feeling about my job actually.. The title: Cost and Scheduling Engineer sounds stressful.. Must be some kind of job that is time sensitive and must reach there early and end late kinda of job..

Shrugs. Nothing is confirmed. *Pray Pray*

2009-06-25T20:18:00.001+08:00

Finally bought a new pair of running shoes after my cumulus 10 got stolen.. And I got the ugly nimbus 10.. Lol..

But it's really comfortable!! though my pocket hurts..

Have been spending A LOT.. Chan liao...

2009-06-24T12:16:00.001+08:00

I wanna i wanna i wanna watch THE RAVEN CHASER!!!

*ANTICIPATION*

2009-06-21T00:31:00.000+08:00

And yes, I NEED a bag to bring for work..

I have been shopping for one.. But I cant find one that I really like..

HURHUR..

It's really hard..

2009-06-21T00:27:00.001+08:00

I'm left with a week before I start working for a lifetime..

This slacking period passed by kinda of fast..

Have a really nice time nuaing..

In the next week, I got so gathering to attend..

I wanna catch drag me to hell and transformers II..

I also hope I can find a day to go to the beach.. I love the sea and the beach..

Have been spending a lot of money on food, clothes, etc.. Dunno where my money goes to actually.. I just can see the numbers in my bank dropping rapidly.. lol..

2009-06-16T11:03:00.000+08:00

Yesterday night was the first night that I have to sleep under my blanket.. Nice weather nei..

I love that kind of weather. But the thunder and lightning are a bit too noisy..

I think I'm more suited for genting's weather..

2009-06-13T14:36:00.003+08:00

Have been slacking these few days.

I guess slacking and being nua once in a while is really good.

Though it can get quite boring at times..

In less than 3 weeks time, I'll start working. I have been working on my wardrobe but it seems like I cant find a direction of what type of clothes to buy..

So my wardrobe is kinda of like a rojak and my pocket are full of holes.

The GSS isnt really helping. Not much sales around actually..

2009-05-26T23:42:00.004+08:00

Finally got the alignment problem of my blog fixed..

Yay.. Much simpler than I thought. =)

2009-05-24T11:11:00.000+08:00

Just got back from malaysia. KL and genting are really boring.. hurhur.. spend days camping in the hotel watching movies on tv, at starbucks surfing the net..

Oh well.. Results ll be out in a week. I better treasure this period of slackness before i start working for life..

2009-05-16T22:26:00.001+08:00

I'm feeling upset over my spoilt phones.. =(

not one.. But two in a row..

2009-05-10T00:20:00.001+08:00

I changed the blog layout..

Now it is filled with my favorite characters.. =)

But then this layout is full of problems.. Heck la.. dont care.. =p

2009-05-07T21:09:00.002+08:00

I was looking at the notes that accummulated through my 4 years in university. Core, electives, breadths, etc.. I was deciding which to keep and which to throw.. I almost wanted to keep all.. lol.. they were all my hardwork.. But in the end I threw 80% of everything..

I decided that I won't need them anymore.. Actually when I flip through them, I i think only 20% of the content is still in my head.. This quite sad.. hurhur.. humans tend to forget things so fast..

2009-05-04T20:20:00.002+08:00

Today is my last day in school but a lot of my first time occurred today. This is the first time I'm sick during exam. And this is also the first time I took cab to and fro school. This is also the first time there is temperature screening in the examination venue and this is also the first time I'm afraid they wont let me take the exams.

Yup I'm sick today. But somehow, I dunno how, I got through the temperature screening.. (Panadol works?) But the 2 hours of exam is a real torture. I can feel my temperature rising and I can no longer understand what the question paper is asking me.

I almost died during the exam. At the end I gotta go to the university health and wellness centre thinking that they will attend to people with high fever fast. (my temp was 38.6) BUT NOOOO.. I was told to wear a mask and have to wait outside the center. If I knew that I got to wait so long, I would have gone home instead.

The weather is hot, my body is even hotter. And I waited there for more than an hour before I get to see the doctor. RARRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

Super almost nearly died. Hurhur.. Today is also my first time that I got special consideration for the exam. Dunno how it works though. The doctor was saying that if I am at a borderline grade, they will push me up (He guessed de).. Hopefully so.. I just wanna a pass. hurhur. =p

2009-05-02T20:52:00.002+08:00

My FINAL Exam Paper is on this coming Monday!!!

F-I-N-A-L

YAY!!! but in my heart SOBS!!!

= confused

2009-04-21T12:44:00.002+08:00

Studying for my final-final exams

This sem's final exam is a bit slack. Bcos I normally have 5 core modules to deal with, but this semester I only have 2 cores + 2 electives with 10 days of study break before my first paper.

and I have been behaving as if i got no exams. Lol.. No time stress = not productive.
bahhh

And I hate maths..... Engineerers dont need to do maths bah.. Profs please dont come out with maths intensive questions bah.. Else I'll do the write-out-all-eqns-and-not-solve it again.. hurhur..

2009-04-11T19:14:00.000+08:00

This is how a chemical engineering lab looks like on a good friday.

Not a single empty seat..

Think twice before deciding when choosing your course.

2009-03-15T13:51:00.002+08:00

I'm pretty sure that I'll die for my petrolchemical midterm..

But I am also pretty sure that many people will die with me..

Haha.. So its not that bad la..

=p

2009-03-15T00:38:00.001+08:00

It's good to rest once in a while. To re-energise and be more fresh.

I spend this morning reading through my lecture notes for my tuesday test and spend the rest of the day resting. I went to the cck swimming pool to play with the slides, the "jacuzzi" and the wave pool. Lol.. Then after that I watched 赤壁2. After that I slack until now. And I am going to bed.

=)

I shall start studying tmr.. =) I hope I can.. Lol

2009-03-04T22:14:00.002+08:00

RARRRRRRRRRRRRR

I died for my test just now.. confirm plus chop will fail..

I always have problems understanding the questions.. WHY?? Something is wrong with my english??

hurhur

2009-02-27T10:45:00.004+08:00

I feel like i'm being crushed by work.. Cant get a decent rest in the one week recess week.

The only time I went out is to search for places to print poster.

And while doing so, I took this photo.. Pretty pretty.

Let me share my findings on poster prices.

Queensway
Printing A1 size = $30
w lamination = $36

School
Printing A1 size = $30
w lamination = $46

Peace Center
Printing with lamination ~$10

Sunshine plaza
Printing with lamination ~$10

-_-

How come the price can differ so much

2009-02-05T22:08:00.002+08:00

I dunno what to blog about.

But I am sian now.

Dont feel like sleeping.

Dont feel like doing work.

Nothing is particular I want to do.

I'm bored.

2009-01-26T00:06:00.003+08:00

I spend almost the whole day today watching sailormoon series with its movies. Of course I didnt get to finish them..

I dunno why I got started with them, but they kinda of remind me of the past.

But in the past, only the first ~40 episodes and the Sailor moon R movies were shown on TV.

But sailormoon has like ~episodes? plus 4 movies?

Hahah..

Though the plot is quite lame and doesnt make a lot of sense, but then, it is still fun watching them.

Up till now, my favourite animes are still conan and sailormoon. Claymore is not bad but then still, i dont think I ll consider it as my favorite..

2009-01-20T21:47:00.003+08:00

National kayak marathon came and passed. It was fun, though it left me with numerous abrasions. Gotta thank pengs for the experience.

This semester should be quite slack for me, but I end up feeling v busy. Project, FYP leftovers, extra modules and driving.

Kinda of cannot find time to paddle. Boohoo.. And worse off, I cant run................ My appointment with the orthopedics is on 18th March.. Government hospitals are just slowwwwwwwwwwwwww.. hurhur..

I am going to dig out some time to do some paddling!!!!! (no matter what)

2009-01-07T09:57:00.000+08:00

I cooked my finger while cooking my breakfast.

*super painful*

2009-01-06T20:44:00.002+08:00

Irritated!

Some things just get into my nerves.

If I am unwilling to tell, just stop probing..

2008-12-24T09:55:00.000+08:00

mt first morning training is ruined by the stupid weather!!

%#$@$%^*&)(*)&*_

2008-12-19T11:46:00.001+08:00

This post is kinda of lame. BUT

I finish the spider solitare, the hard version. Errr I thought that was an accomplishment. I never finished it before.. lol..

It also shows how boring FYP can get.

2008-12-11T21:08:00.001+08:00

Safari Zoo Run 2009

So interesting & cute.. Haha..

2008-12-11T12:48:00.002+08:00

I'm an underpronator!

To know what you are, this is a good website.. =)

2008-12-10T17:05:00.000+08:00

readings, readings and more readings.

ARGHH.

2008-12-09T12:38:00.004+08:00

My marathon picture. I only have one. Maybe it will be the only one in my lifetime of me running the full marathon. =p

Chinese new year is coming.
Its cooking pineapple time. Hurhur.. HOT! and tiring.

Pineapples

My pot of pineapples (semi-done only)

My mummy's pot

苦中做乐。 Cute right.

2008-12-07T19:33:00.001+08:00

ITS FINALLY OVER!

STANDARD CHARTERED MARATHON!

FINISHER OF 42.195KM.

I remembered telling myself years ago that I must complete a marathon at least once in my lifetime. But I haven't been giving the goal a great thought until jen approached me this year.

THANKS JEN. You are a great running partner.

So now that I have completed a marathon once, will there be the next one?

My legs are aching now, and I'm full of abrasions. And to make this worse, I'm burnt!!

Marathons are painful!!

2008-12-02T00:26:00.003+08:00

Hemophobia

An abnormal and persistent fear of blood. Sufferers of this very common phobia dread the sight of their own blood, the sight of the blood of another person or an animal, and sometimes printed or filmed images of blood or even thoughts of blood. Like any phobia, hemophobia involves an irrational fear, where the person's emotional and psychological reaction overpowers the mind and can trigger serious physical symptoms.

And v unfortunately, I do have this phobia. I do understand that its just fluid flowing in my body but its just irrational fear. The sight and even thought of it makes me weak.

The reason why I am writing this posts is because I seriously seriously hate it when people deliberately talk about gross stuff when they know I have this fear. Its really a nasty act of you especially if you are my friend and you do it on purpose.

2008-11-27T14:26:00.001+08:00

I'm wasting my time away..

argghhhh last paper..

But i dunno how to study for it..

roarrrrrrr

2008-11-24T03:31:00.000+08:00

I did my first 30km of run and this run is causing me to be so awake until now!!

Hurhur. BTW its 0330am and I AM AWAKE.

The run is painful, with my muscles cramping up at 20+km. According to enpingy, it might be the duration of the run that cause the cramp up, as his ll cramp up at 30+k.. Hmm that means I have to double my speed in order to avoid any cramp up for 42k..

That sounds impossible..

Anyway I should try to sleep.

2008-11-20T00:14:00.002+08:00

My health is erratic.

My mood is eccentric.

My injury is peculiar.

My brain is confused.

2008-11-19T13:47:00.001+08:00

i'm sick again.

boohoooooooooo.

2008-11-15T19:50:00.000+08:00

Computational FYP

Effort != results

Spent two whole days = back to square 1..

ROARRRRRRRRRRR..

I should attempt harder to stop thinking about FYP and start revising for exams.

2008-11-15T10:47:00.000+08:00

I just met Rudi yesterday and I got stuck thinking about FYP today and yesterday.. hurhur..

I cant get to start my preparation of exams bcos my mind keep thinking about FYP and FYP.

Rate la, flux la, concentration la, argggggghhhhhhhhhh..

2008-11-09T17:50:00.002+08:00

Round Ubin is finally over..

Its shows a lack of training on my part.. Cos I'm kinda of dying when I cross back to the main land..

Next to come is standard chartered. I think it ll be worse than round ubin.. Due to the injury on my foot, I haven been running for TWO weeks.. Hurhur.. I quite worried.. And it doesnt seem that it ll recover totally any time soon.. But i think injury this kinda of thing, it takes forever to recover..

I'm now very burnt and my nose is like leaking like a spoilt tap.. And when I was eating dinner, my fork and spoon are both shaking.. Hurhur.. Time to take some medicine and sleep..

I DIDNT DO ANYTHING FOR THE WEEKEND!! AND EXAMS ARE COMING!!!

2008-11-04T19:04:00.000+08:00

I am mean!!!

2008-11-02T16:35:00.002+08:00

Really nice movie -> Full Score of Fear.

2008-11-02T00:42:00.002+08:00

I'm pretty sure that my ankle problem is related to the peroneal tendon.

I hate nua-ing!!

2008-10-31T21:20:00.004+08:00

I HATE NUA-ING!!
I cant believe that I am saying this.

This is my most nua semester out of my 3+ years in the university.. Usually people think that the 4th year is the most hectic year.. But it doesnt feel so..

But when I look around me, all my friends seem to be very busy.. They are all complaining about how they have to go to lab 5 times a week and how they have to stay in lab for long hours.. And they make me feel like I am out of place..

Workload = 21MC.. Training of 5 times a week.. Such workload doesnt seem to be slack at all.. But ya it is.. With most of my tests and projects over, I seem to be left with very little things to do..

With spare time and little things to do, I nuaaa. I practically nua today and yesterday.. Doing like minimal stuff, watch tv, paddle and sleep.. Heh

I remember Mr yong once commented me.. When you have a important task to assign people to do, you should look for the busiest.. Cos he will get it done in the shortest amount of time.. I remembered this bcos I think it applies to me.. When I am busy, I get things done fast.. Efficient! But when I am slack, I will procrastinate like the date line never comes. I hate the feeling when I know I am suppose to do things when I am not.. (which is now)

I only have 3 modules left to clear for graduation, but I guess I will overload my next semester.. Take C++?? Hurhur.. I am crazy right??

2008-10-29T09:19:00.002+08:00

I wanted to copy and paste one whole paragraph of a website explaining nocturnal leg cramp here. But then I was reminded of the copyright law that was taught in engineering professionalism this morning.. From what I remember:(Infringement of the copyright law: reproduction or republication of some tangible material without the consent of the owner). And I also remember that he said that if you cant get away with it 99% of the time.. hurhur.. So i decided not to.. lol..

Actually the current lecturer is quite interesting. He is a lawyer and comes to lecture us on copyright, trademarks, registered design, patents, etc etc.. He is good.. Hahah I like..

Anyway back to my original intention of blogging. I have been suffering nocturnal leg cramps.. Boohooooooooo.. Its super painful.. But in the past, its so painful that I will tear.. When it is gone, I fall back asleep.. But now, I seem to be so used to it that I no longer tear with the pain.. lol..

I was reading about it. It was said that such night cramps affect elderly and late stages pregnant woman most.. I'M OLDDDDDDDDDDD.. Lack of minerals of dehydration..

I guess what is most relevant to me besides the fact that I am old is dehydration.. But people are already calling me 水桶 already.. How can a 水桶 be dehydrated.. lol.. But its true that I sweat a lot a lot la.. hmmm time to drink even more water.