Tuesday, January 31, 2006

A lousy CN1111 lecturer,
a lousy CN 1111 tutor,
a lousy CN1111 textbook,
a lousy student,
does that imply a terrible thing to be in???

I cant catch up with my work!!! But actually I could have.. But I want to rest the few days of holidays as much as I want to catch up.. Temptations verus priority.. I hate to keep disciplining myself, and I'm tired of telling myself to do what is right. Instead I should of letting my heart make the decision.. Can I??

I think I'm just tired, I need rest!! My body seems to tell me so too.. It's been behaving weirdly these few days..

Waiting for to come out again!!

22:31

Today is chu 3 le.. So fast.. I havent do my homework yet.. So much.. So sian..

Chinese New Year.. A good chance for a family gathering.. But then for my paternal side, it seems to have a bit of sadness.. Sadness for those who used to be in the gathering but have now gone to somewhere far.. Relationships over the years have kind of tensed up a bit.. I can still remember a few years ago, chinese new year is ri ri nao nao, xi xi ha ha. But now a more of qi qi liang liang, leng leng qing qing.. =p

I still prefer Christmas.. =p

11:14

Sunday, January 29, 2006

Why must he always do things that will force others to do things that they dont like!!!

Btw, I think my old problem is coming back.. My wu ming zhi (fourth finger) on my right hand cannot open after I close my fist.. Hmm.. But not as serious as last time.. I think i got joint problem le..

And in the end I'm still going indonesia.. Dunno when I will come back.. I will definitely push for tomorrow.. But see how la.. If mummy begs me, then I cant do anything.. She already very poor thing..

09:46

Saturday, January 28, 2006

How come he just do not know how to behave... He just likes to do things to make people upset....

09:36

Hmmm.. I have set my goal to be 45kg by Chinese New year and 5 pullups by Valentine's Day.. Hmm suprisingly, I met my 5 pullup now even like I'm still 2 weeks from V day.. But thats good... BUT my weight is not 45.. Its now ermm.. Wait I go and weigh.. ITS 45!!! SO SURPRISING.. *must go fang bian bao le* yesterday its still around in between 45 and 46 more inclined to 46.. Hahahaha.. I met my goals.. Yay.. But the thing is the weight will be lighter in the morning.. Yup.. But I dont care, I met my goals.. Bleah..

So new goals now:
Pullup: 7 by V day
Weight: Maintain at 45kg.. (meaning lose fats, gain muscles)

09:27

Friday, January 27, 2006

Very very tired, even more drained after the phone call.. It has been what I'm waiting for.. But never mind.. I cant get to sleep without messaging him good night.. I'm too used to it.. But I'm fuming now, and do not want to message him.. So can only post here..

Mood today: super tired, mad, ultra sad..

23:34

No idea how a happy happy conversation could have ended up like that.. Maybe its my fault?? Just suggesting that my punishment for being spoilt is not to see him this weekend (it really will be a punishment) and he said its fine.. And he start saying bad things and stop speaking and hang up the phone without saying bye bye.. So rude.. I'm mad.. Really mad this time..

PS: I dunno what to do.. He is mad and I dont want him to be mad.. But I'm mad too.. I dont want my CNY to be like that.. But still, I still mad..

23:27

The guys.. Hmm.. They so bad that day la.. Althought the girls are late, they shouldnt like dont wait for them and go in and eat first.. That resulted in the girls having to wait outside v v v long just to get in.. So ungentlemanly.. PS:I'm the only girl thats on time..

Me and my good good good good friend..

Molly so bad.. See la, spoil the shot.. But never mind, I still look nice.. =p Lol..

CUTE?? Lol..

I took this.. Nice? I think v nice lei.. Its a candid shot..

Pathetic 3 girls out of the 8 in class.. But mirriam joined after that too..

Showing off my Christmas present.. =p PS: that wasnt intentional.

This was quite a nice outing.. Cos a lot of the guys actually appeared.. But unfortunately many of the girls werent here.. But its still better than in the past when the guys always say that the girls always only send one representative.. Lol.. Cos last time class outing, most of the time, coincidentally, always got only 1 girl attend.. Haha.. But its quite fun.. Though its kenny roger (very ex and food is not to my liking) but I think its ok lei.. So nice to meet up with them.. =D

22:29

Thursday, January 26, 2006

Got so many things to complain about, but too tired to.. Wasnt intending to blog but the printing is taking too long, so while waiting I must as well.. So busy today, catching up with homework, training and thinking of what to buy for Vday present.. The last seem to be the hardest.. Hai..

And dear dear also bully me yesterday.. I really think that crying is ok.. I do agree that crying is useless, but being useless it doesnt mean that it is wrong to do it.. And it is not all useless.. It does help people calm down and settle down faster.. To actually show myself that I'm indeed right, I went to read up a bit about crying.. =p but I'm really curious if I'm wrong.. (btw I cried today, maybe not cry but teared.. And I did the reading is more to prove that it wasnt wrong.. Even if its wrong, I cant control it.. The frustration I was feeling then was terrible..)

This is what an article is basically about:
Crying and laughter are beneficial to us both emotionally and physically. We must have them to function in the world.

Scientists have discovered that the emotional tears contain higher levels of manganese and the hormone prolactin, and this contributes in a reduction of both of these in the body; thus helping to keep depression away. Many people have found that crying actually calms them after being upset, and this is in part due to the chemicals and hormones that are released in the tears.

Many believe that the body, in times of emotional stress, depends on this gland to release excess amounts of chemicals and hormones, returning it to a stable state.

Women have been allowed to cry more than men traditionally, but the benefits of crying seem to suggest that men need to cry more.

This is the website: http://www.gibbsmagazine.com/CryinLaughing.htm

22:42

Wednesday, January 25, 2006

Wa man.. Never capsize for so long le.. JEN.. Your fault.. Jen capsizes and while I was trying to rescue her, she capsized my boat.. And in the end got to swim like 400m back to the shore, cos the boat is too full with water to go back onto it.. -_-" So tiring la.. I'm at computer lab now waiting for programming lesson to start, but so tired to even put my hands on the keyboard.. O.o

14:13

Tuesday, January 24, 2006

Jie Jie finally starts school le.. Yesterday was her orientation.. Today is real school and yesterday she briefly told me about it.. It seems that she will be pretty busy.. Kinda of pity her but i couldnt do much.. And she got to save 700 bucks a month just to pay for her school fees.. And she still need to buy textbook and eat.. Hai..

Me lei, having quite a lot of nightmares recently.. Its kinda of unusual cos I dont get nightmare often.. Dunno whats happening lei.. Maybe I got go get the dream catcher pouch.. Heehee.. I wont, so eeeeerrryyy.. Hope these nightmares will go away and sweet dreams to come..

23:04

Hur Hur.. I am angry le.. Fa xiao jie pi qi le..

14:34

Monday, January 23, 2006

3 weeks to Thailand and finally back.. Met him just now and he is as usual, late.. =p I'm kinda of used to it.. Hmm.. But was quite sad that he never reply the dozens of messages that I send him the previous night.. Ok la, not dozens la.. Just that I dont like it when my messageS are not replied.. Cos I will tend to infer and infer until very very far.. Bleah.. =p

But I'm happy that he is back but quite sad that I'm too busy to spend much of my time with him..

So tired this few days, havent been able to wake up late for like thousands of years already..

22:58

Sunday, January 22, 2006

How come my post before 14/Jan cant get shown on the blog.. Hur hur..

Because of the lousy me, if you haven visit my blog for very long and wants a more complete one, go to OTHERS and click the respective month.. It took me very long to just put the archiving there.. So you can imagine how lousy I am..

10:58

It was quite a boring dinner, but its ok since the canoeists are here.. Haha.. They are a funny funny bunch.. I only got these photos only.. Very little.. The others got to wait for others to send me.. (that is provided that they do send me) Hmm..

Look at the poor merlion!! Its a salt figurine?? It became our toys in the boring dinner.. First got tried to see if there is any reaction with carbonated water, then alcohol and then with water.. After the tryings, its head got split into two and got to insert a straw to hold the head together.. LOL..

Btw my progress:
Pullup manage to increase from 0 to become 2 now..
But weight got no improvement at all..

10:18

Friday, January 20, 2006

Got to thank these people, so sweet..
Top of the list is of course, Maa maa.. He spent so much money messaging me and even bought a sim card to call me to keep in contact with me..

2) Dominic: For driving me home (together with Belle and Jasmine). And he came to talk to me when he sees that I'm sitting alone weirdly and sees if he can help.. (Furthermore he does these to everyone) So sweet.. He and Belle so teng dui..

3) Melissa: For offering to photocopy for me CN textbook, offering to let me stay in her hostel when I have nothing to do for 4 hours and driving me home today.

4) Chi Chiong: For driving me to Mac Ritchie for training. Even though its on his way to Thomson Plaza and its shun lu, but he still did me a favor..

Just to add, you know Chi Chiong bought a new spectacles just cos his present one has its warrantly expired.. And his new spectacles costed him 407 bucks.. Thats a lot of money la.. I will never spend so much for a spectacles la.. Somemore his present one is not like spoiled or anything.. And you know he said he spend 400bucks on petrol each month.. But I heard he is not as rich as he seems to be..

19:55

Maa Maa at the beginning of the CM1502 lecture.. See so cute.. =D

Lecturer: What is PV?
Lecturer: PV is just P times V..

Lecturer: What is an ideal gas?
Lecturer: Many people will have different definition for ideal gas?
Lecturer: But what really is ideal gas?
Lecturer: Ideal gas IS ideal gas!!
Lecturer again: Ideal gas is gases that are not real..

Maa maa after 10 minutes out of the 2 hour lecture..

Lecture notes transformed!!!

Hey hey I got myself New handphone pouch.. Nice nice?? =D

15:32

Thursday, January 19, 2006

NO BLOGGING >>>>> BAD MOOD...

22:05

Wednesday, January 18, 2006

Enping is disgusting la.. I havent finish tutorial one and still stuck badly in it, he is already looking at tutorial two and started looking through tutorial two lecture notes.. Arghh.. He is giving me a lot of stress la.. And you know what, when I was going to school after training with him, we met his friend on the bus.. Then his friend asked him: what cca are you in? He said: kayaking.. Then continued saying: NOTHING ONE LA.. VERY SLACK ONE.. JUST GO THERE AND ROW ROW ONLY.. I was like stunned.. Very stunned..

This morning training was supposed to be 4 x 1k with resistance 4x1k without, but turned out that jen prefers the 10k easy program and therefore we are do that easier one.. I dont think things should be like that lei.. Think as a captain jen shouldnt be like that.. But she might have her reasons though..

Although today training quite slack and that we were playing around with the boats after training (meaning wasting a lot of time) but it is quite fun.. I was like riding on Enping's T1, being his resistance and he was bring me small rounds of the mac ritchie reservoir.. Lol.. Quite fun..

AND I CHANGED PARTNER.. My mummy is my partner now.. Actually I felt better doing k2 with her.. Not that I dont like Fiona, but I know that Fiona has always wanted to do k1, and I think she doesnt like k2.. So by putting us together, I felt that she will be unhappy doing with me.. But with peiying, its different.. We were from the same jc and so we went through similar kinds of trainings.. And we are quite good friends, so is like if we feel that there is anything wrong with the k2, we will just voice it out.. Communication is better in this case.. Although I think we will be much slower than the other pair of k2, I think we can improve a lot.. Jia you ba.. I will work hard and I have faith in peiying..

Btw dear dear finished all this missions already and coming back on monday early early morning.. Yay yay, finally.. Misses him..

21:49