Monday, February 27, 2006

Why must guys be better than girls.. Why must girls be small and cute and guys be big and handsome...

I thought you are the one who supported me to do sports.. Now that I'm doing it, and bulking up, you tell me you prefer me being small..

Why is appearance so important... I hate appearance.........................................................................

23:35

Just knew that Esther changed courses.. Actually not really changed course.. She quit NUS.. She decided to study music at La Selle instead.. Such a big change, from chem engine to music.. And she stop attending lectures anymore..

Besides her still got sze wei lei.. She deciding to change from ntu accountancy to nus science.. But then if she really does so, she will lose all her government grant.. That means v v ex school fees..

Still got many other examples, change from mechanical engine to arts, engine to science, etc etc... Hmmm.. I'm thinking of changing too.. But i got no direction to head.. I dunno where to go.. I know I'm a very practical person, so isnt engine the place for me??? ARGHHHH...

Actually I had hoped to study astrology.. hmm.. But thats very impractical.. No use one.. But I still think its very interesting.. Like tarot cards, I Ching, horoscopes, magic etc.. Then in the future open a store something like a haunted house in the shopping centre.. Then inside I'll scaring people or dressed in a witch, playing magic or reading fortune for people.. Then inside the store also can sell these magic stuff, tarot cards, mask, etc.. Interesting right.. Hai.. Thats just a dream.. But so cool right..

Another thought was to set up a tuition centre.. Lol.. Tuition is the hot thing now man.. Everyone wants tuition.. Lol.. And since I like authority and I like to be able to know what others don't and telling people things that will amaze them. So teaching should good job for me.. But not under MOE.. So sian..

I guess I just like to amaze people..

But chem engine is like no where near these.. Hmmm.. I dunno why I'm heading this way..

22:16

Am i dumb? Or plain stupid? I'm sure I'm not.. The tutoring at Gan Eng Seng primary rang wo da kai yan jie.. The student that I took very very long to visualise a solid cube on a 2-D paper.. Not that she is lazy, its just that she is slow.. Compared to her where I take very long to translate vector equations to 3D images and draw it on a 2D paper and finding the boundaries so that I can find volume, I'm far much better.. ??
Everyone wants to be the best.. But who can.. There bound to be people better than you..

So my conclusion: we should just adapt and be happy with the status you are at instead of keep wanting to be on the top.. Zhi ju chang le..

But still: why is it so unfair, some people os pretty, some people so ugly, some people so smart, so people are mentally disabled.. How come life is so unfair??? Hmmm..

Ps: does the 4th dimension really exist?

10:56

Friday, February 24, 2006

Today started off badly and huo bu dan xing.. So sad.. Hai.. Dun wanna talk about them.. Bleah.. Unlucky unlucky day..

Ended off with training and a super achy lower back.. Drained man.. Going to wait for my hot water to bath then sleep loh.. Yay...

Sleep, I need sleep.. I need sleep.. I need sleep..

22:12

Thursday, February 23, 2006

Oh no.. My right wrist hurts.. Its generally ok, as in not very painful but at times there will be sharp pain.. I dunno what happen and why like that.. Hur hur..

Today is thursday le, the last day of the mid-term break but I didnt seem to really have a break.. The only thing I managed to do is that I kept my homework behind on the weekends and enjoyed that weekend super much.. Though never fly kite, but its still a good weekend.. Dear suggested that we go this weekend, but dunno lei, term starts liao.. A bit hard.. Though I still wanna go very much.. But haii.. reality is cruel...

I'm getting bigger and bigger.. So sad.. I like to be small small and cute cute.. Now is big big and scary scary.. EEEEEEEEEEEE....

13:57

Wednesday, February 22, 2006

Hee.. Hao xing fu wo.. Hmm.. Nowadays will I think of him will smile especially sweetly.. Hmm.. Must be fa hua chi.. But I dont care.. Hmm so xing fu..

That day when his daddy was fetching me back to CCK to take bus, he was telling me about his childhood.. So cute.. Dont wanna drink milk.. When they prepare too much then they will have to give most of them to doggy instead.. He ah.. So naughty.. Then keep crying and crying..

The cutest thing is that his daddy says his head is very big but body very small when he is young.. Must be because he dont wanna drink milk.. *reminds me of tweety bird* *should i call him tweety bird from now on* *but he will not like for sure* *lol, i'm talking to myself*

Anyway back to the topic, he says dear got small body but big head then cannot walk properly, keep wobbling and falling hurting his head.. That causes him to have a lot of bruises now and then.. Because of that his daddy will get scolded by his grandma and granddad for allowing him to fall.. Lol.. I cant imagine it.. but never see any scar lei.. haha..

But too bad the trip so short.. If not he could have told me more...

Anyway.. I miss home-cooked food.. I begin to understand how dear feels.. Hmmm.. And yesterday when I went Mac donalds for lunch in school i realised that the big mac meal and the mc chicken meal and mc nuggets meal have the same price... 4.30.. I'm like -_-""" they are like how different.. Big mac is like so big.. But in the end I got mc spicy which just costs 10cents more.. But then, the chicken patty is like 3/4 flour la.. no wonder so cheap..

Met a person who asks me to donate at the interchange after training today.. It started me thinking: there are so many people out there asking for donation and some are especially irritating.. What is their purpose?? To get money no matter what?? Or to win sympathy so that people will be willing to donate?? I think most people donates out of irritation and so that those irritating people will stop bothering them.. For charity, it should be fa zi nei xin, but not forced.. right??

13:20

Tuesday, February 21, 2006

Dno't konw if you all can udnresnatd tihs bolg but I funod it qitue fun. The tihng is taht if you keep the frist and lsat wrod in the smae pacle, you wlil sitll udnresnatd waht it is eevn tuoghh the mddlie pcalnig is all wnorg.. Hee hee.. Tihs is so fun, but so tdeiuos.. Argh..

Btw I got sveen out of tewvle for mtahs isntaed of six.. Sitll qitue bad but btteer now la.. Qiute hpapy.. Hpoe tehy nveer mkae a msitkae.. If not I wlil klil tehm for mkaing me feel btteer wehn I ddin't do btteer..

So srtess.. hmm.. Uinvsertiy is not the smae as I touhhgt.. So cpomivttee.. Hai.. Trehe mroe yaers la.. Can de.. Hee..

17:23

Monday, February 20, 2006

Just realised I can access electronic straits times through nus website.. So cool.. There goes my school fees.. Actually there are a lot of facilities that the school offers that are unknown to most of us.. Then its like, we are not using the services we are paying for.. Hmmm.. Quite unfair right.. But in any case, I dont need to buy straits times loh.. Yay... =D (but its quite slow, still prefer the paper ones)

There was an article today bout a NYP girl whose handphone contains a 10 minute clip of her having sex with a guy.. Her handphone got stolen and the video was distributed.. quite grossed it.
**http://www.bexafraid.com/

There was another acticle saying.. 11pm restriction on youths.. Those under 17 spotted loitering in void decks, parks and other public places after 11pm may be stopped by cops, who will talk to them and may even write to their parents. I was like heh.. What the.. Must singapore really goes to this extent??

16:52

Got so many things to say.. But first and most impt of cos is to thank the sweetest person in the world.. And who else can it be.. Maa maa?? oopps.. Its my dear dear la.. Haha.. Cannot call him maa maa le.. But since he is so sweet then I shall stop calling him that.. Haha.. Love him man.. Though fish is not something that I like but he cook one is especially nice.. Love the salad actually but love him more.. Lol..

Four days break starts today.. So many things to do.. AHHHH.. A bit not oriented already.. I have only 4 days and friday is my heaviest tutorial day.. Ok.. I shall list what I need to do..

Chemistry lab report

Maths virtual lab

Position Paper (this will take super much time)

CN 1111 tutorial that has passed but I havent do

CN 1111 upcoming tutorial

CS 1101C upcoming tutorial

CM 1502 tutorial 2 that got to hand up

CM 1502 tutorial 3

MA1506 tutorial

Prepare for GEK 1503 midterm (this is ok)

Prepare for CM 1503 midterm (which I dont understand half of whats going on)

Prepare for CN 1111 midterm (which I dont understand ANYTHING at all)

TRAINING <-- super super time consuming other than sleeping.

Pack my room..

AHHHHH.. No time.. And so tired.. Somemore my maths and programming did so badly... Can you imagine I got 6 out of 12 for maths ONLY......... So sad..Programming is 14 out of 21. This is not as bad but still quite bad..

And ya
15. Buy commissioning ball dress. Yay can go shopping.. Lol..

And you know what

DOM: hey guys, sorry for the late notice but we'll be havin gym same time this evening at nus src.. anyone cannot make it?

Boo: Hey I cant make it tonight.. I got to do project..

DOM: Rubbish.

Boo: Real.. Group project for eg1413.. And I just finish rowing (I went down to row in the morning with fiona.. Only 2 of us)

DOM: Bluff who?? Trying to slack right..

Boo: (dont reply le)

DOM: oei! I was kidding laaa =P dun need to be so serious =P hehe.. okaz, enjoy your group meeting project thingy =)

-_-"" I was like errrrr.. I really feel very out lor.. I dunno what to do.. I cant put in 100% for both canoeing or studies.. I have to compromise on canoeing.. But I dont feel good compromising.. GUILTY from not training.. Then how?? This feeling sucks..

11:27

Saturday, February 18, 2006

Yay.. Dear like the phone that I bought him.. Haha.. So happy.. But then i dunno whether there will be kite flying tmr.. =( But the dinner will still be on.. Lol.. Hee..

I did badly for my maths.. I merely just passed.. Hmm.. I dunno what's wrong with my maths.. Hmm.. Actually i think I know partially whats wrong.. I dont really understand the basis for the formulas that I learned.. I used to but now I no longer.. Maybe its because I dont have the time to or I dont bother or its too hard for me to bother.. I have no idea.. I will see what I can do about it la.. But the problem is my cn1111 is in a much much worse case.. Then now?? I'm pressed for time and I not smart enough to learn so many things with the time given to me.. I need practice and they dont provide us much.. But even if they provide I dont have the time to do... ARGH.. 1 sem is like only 3 months.. How much can I do.........

Hai.. But still I got to try my best.. Got to study hard during this break le..

19:44

Friday, February 17, 2006

I just feel like saying: WTF is going on...

Not targeting anyone, just very bek chek...

20:55

He is sad recently.. I do not know why and I cant do much.. And I feel sad too.. Not because there are anything that bother me, but just because he is sad. I think this is normal in a relationship.. If he is very happy your day will tend to brighten up too..

Tests coming up. Maths: what used to be easy to me is becoming a problem. Not that I cant do them but it is no longer as easy as it used to be.

Bought Vday present finally.. Its quite ex and I hope he likes it. And hope he doesnt scold me..

Current mode: down..

20:37

Wednesday, February 15, 2006

I will miss training one whole week this week.. Cos of the tonnes of workload and the upcoming mid-term tests.. Actually I think I could have trained.. For example today.. Cos training SHOULDN'T take up a lot of time especially since we are doing short but intensive training.. But I know the team quite well..

In NJ i believe training that starts at 7 with the same kind of program can end at like 8 or 8.30. But in NUS, training is said to start at 7 but it will really starts at 8.10? Its like errrrrr.. And it will take like 2 hours to finish the program and end up 11 plus.. Errr.. I dont mind training like that if I'm not in rush for time.. But in the situation now where time is tight, I cant stand it...

My coughing is getting bad.. Threw up in front of him yesterday.. How can?? Yesterday is Vday lei.. *sniff sniff* He shouldnt see me unglam.. I dont wanna see doctor.. They dont help at all............. AT ALL.. Somemore the medicine they gives make me drowsy.. Then my homework how?? I wouldnt take it lor, so why bother see doctor.. Just waste money only.. So now I will control my diet.. No oil, no cold, no cookies, no chocolate.. Hope by this I improve.. If not I do not have a say at all if I go out with him.. Hur hur.. I dont want.. I wanna go his house so that he can cook for me.. Hee.. Recover recover.. Heee..

11:50

Monday, February 13, 2006

I pon training today to come home to do work.. Feel quite guilty cos I wouldnt be training this week.. But then I set my priority.. Studies first.. Not canoeing.. Got to remind myself..

For those who wonder how come my nick is eeeeeeeeeeeee, its because I puked on the bus today.. So unglam man.. I was with my friend and she saw the unglam site.. Actually for the first puke I swallowed it back.. EEEEEEEEE.. I didnt know what make me do that.. But for the second puke it came out and got onto my clothes... EEEEEEEEE... Today is a eeking day.. Oh man.. The stupid cough.. Please go away..

20:18