Sunday, July 09, 2006
I dunno how come people can be so obssessed about canoeing such that their life is almost entirely on canoeing.. Dream about canoeing, talk about canoeing and spend all the time canoeing.. Hurhur.. =p
I am even more confused about how come people can be SO obssessed about winning.. WINNING ISNT EVERYTHING.. yi san hai you yi san gao.. (erm thought about this cos i was reading someone's blog) but i thought it is impossible to win everyone..
Competition in two weeks time.. And i dont feel prepared AT ALL.. actually i'm quite sian of what is happening.. actually wanna take a break out of it.. But then with the competition coming, i have no choice.. I have been missing afternoon training, dunno if it is deliberate that i choose to not upset my friends anymore and choose to ignore the time??
Actually other than the N team people, i dont see any of the girls training consistently.. I dunno what to do about that.. Jeremy says:" you cant force people to come for training." Is that an excuse for me for not doing anything to persuade people to come??
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Wednesday, July 05, 2006
Ok, dont need to say how good i am.. I am not doing great at all.. All that happen were bcos I wasnt able to manage the team well.. All of the sense of being left out, the feeling that there isnt any team anymore could have been prevented.. I almost lost the whole team.. How good can I be??
I hope what happen yesterday would be the last episode of the roughness that i have been going through.. Was quite disgusted at how i reacted cos i totally lost control of the situation.. I guess its bcos it came from someone i trusted and cared for.. Emotions was much greater than my logical thinking and i couldnt handle it properly.. I think i got to learn more EQ..
Ziyang and peiying will know how sensitive I am when people use vulgarity, especially on me.. I still remember every single incident that people uses vulgarity on me.. I just cannot stand it..
For those that are there, thanks for helping me.. Really.. Couldnt express how much i appreciated you all for being there..
Btw i think my handphone might have some problem.. Cos i seem not to be receiving messages that others claim to have send me.. Another weird thing.. hurhur..
Erm yaa i wanna say sorry to daisy cos i seem to be bullying him recently.. =p but quite fun la.. revenge for keep saying i'm fat. Even if that is the truth, also dun need to keep saying one what..errrrr.. lol haha.. ok la, =p i should stop fooling around..
Feeling confused recently.. A lot of weird thoughts and a lot of weird feelings that is leaving me totally confused..
13:18